Wednesday, February 13, 2008

OMG! I got a JOB!

Okay, well, I'm not really sure how it happened either. I must have some seriously good brownie points saved up somewhere. My college pal, Mary, emailed me a couple months ago totally out of the blue and basically plopped a job at her awesome company in my lap. The company is SolDesign and I am their brand new Account Manager.

I'm a bit nervous about how my energy level will hold up or how my doctor's appointments schedule may interfere with what they need, but I have been open and honest with Mary and her co-owner, Adam, about my limitations and they still seem to want me anyway. Even though I haven't worked in a looooong time, I have worked as an Account Manager before, which is giving me the extra boost of confidence to give it a shot anyway. And we're doing a trial period to make sure it's a good fit for everyone. So, I'm pretty darn excited!

Thursday, February 07, 2008

On the 2nd day of Lent my true love gave to me...

(I don't really have anything clever to finish that "12 days of Christmas" reference)

ANYway, I am not sure but I think I am breaking the rules of my "Time for Lent" thing already because while I write this post I am, in fact, still paying attention to my email inbox, running the laundry and I haven't even really taken time to specifically think about/learn about/talk to God today. Except that as I was trying to straighten up the space next to my side of the bed, that included folding up my awesome prayer shawl and I was like, "hey, I should use this prayer shawl thingy!"

It was knit for me by a group of ladies in Massachusetts who kind of knit prayers into these shawls that they then give to you. It's all kinds of awesome because 1)it's my favorite color in the softest yarn ever 2)you know that someone took the time to hand-make it just for you, so it makes you feel special and loved 3)there's like, loving faith mojo attached to it 4)and you can use it to warm and comfort yourself when you're feeling low, alone and generally chilly. I also have a new shawl, thanks to my awesome friends from Germany (hallo Iso u. Dodo!), that's wonderfully soft with great silver stripes and will be perfect when the weather's warmer.

I actually have been intending to use it in part of a personal "me" time and prayer ritual - to make a pointed effort to step aside from crazy life stuff and have a few quiet moments with myself and with God. Like how some people light a candle or incense or have a favorite spot at the local Cafe where they reboot their spirit. For years it was my bed, pillow, diary and a decent pen that was MY place. And sometimes it still is, although it's not quite as "mine" since I share the bed with Jon (kind of oart of that whole 'married' thing). That's nothing against him, it just means that I need to adjust my "special place" a little and I am blessed to have a whole house to do it in.

At the very least I could use the shawl as my "invisible cape" (I think Harry Potter had one?) where Jon knows that when I have the shawl on me, I am having my own little time and would prefer to be left alone - thus making me "invisible." And hopefully have that head/physical/quiet space that I think most of us are desperately lacking in our lives to reconnect and really feel the ground beneath our feet.

Ah, well, now I'm getting kind of preachy or something annoying like that, so I'll just try my best to do all this stuff I'm talking about and I'll let you know how it goes. We leave for Jon's home-town tomorrow for his Grandpa's funeral this weekend, but I hope I'll still be able to stick to my Lent-y-ness and keep posting here or on flickr.

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

My first day of Lent

I've been wanting to do an "In My Life" or a "365" for a while but knew I didn't have it in me to really do it. So, instead, I'm going to try to do the 40 days of Lent FOR Lent. (and, no, it's not just for Catholics)

Basically what I am giving up for Lent is time. I am going to take time that I would/could normally waste on t.v.. email and other crap and use it instead on actively taking time to either pray, read the bible or some other similarly spiritual activity that might hopefully deepen my relationship with God.

I started my journey tonight at our church, All Souls Fellowship, which hosted a special Ash Wednesday service. It's a church that I found online last year after I got out of the hospital and wanted to find a non-catholic church that offered contemplative prayer. Since then, we wound up having our pre-marital counseling with this same church's associate Pastor, Dan, and feeling quite at home in the sunday services.

Tonight, Pastor Shayne's homily centered on Psalm 51:1-17, which begins with, "Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love: according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions."

I find that the central themes in my faith are Grace, Forgiveness* and Mercy. And being the nearly completely screwed up person that I am, I am SO grateful for that!
(okay, so I accidentally originally typed "forgivemess", which is really more accurate)

Sunday, February 03, 2008

We've been BLOGGED!

Our awesome photographers from OUR LABOR OF LOVE, Jesse & Whitney, also keep a blog of their work. And now we're in it! CH-CH-CHECK IT OUT